Lunch-Do

The lunch outing that we've been planning for weeks finally materialised. We(my classmates and me) went to Atria this afternoon to grab a quick lunch. Guess what?! We decided to be naughty and brought our mobiles to school. Haha....but I guess I was the naughtiest 'coz I brought my camera along, thanks to a dear friend who reminded me to.=)

So, we went and ate and took pictures. It was fun and at least my friends could witness with their own eyes that I do have a big appetite. Don't underestimate my petite size!! Haha...but anyway, the highlight of the day was still my dear dear friend, Y3 the laughing hyena as usual laughed like a mad person about what? We do not know...

Here are some of the pictures we took....

* the laughing hyena who always bring us laughter (Yike Yuan)*

*the outing gang...(from left seated: Hui Nee, Kah Yee, Me, Li Sze;

from left standing: Yike Yuan and Mei Teng)*

*ahem! the privilege one...the thorn among the roses (Jia Xian)*

*Do we look alike?? Hmm....*

Well, I'm thankful God put into my life such wonderful friends. I learnt how to enjoy friendship better this year. But I doubt we can have more of such outings in the near future especially next year with SPM coming up. Hey guys! Thanks for a fun lunch-do today. Let's do it again....soon?

Rainbow Of My Heart

There was once a season when my heart became cold and uncaring. I just lost the enthusiasm to care and also to show love to those around me. Well, I guess everyone has at least once felt that they should do something but just can't bring themselves to do it, right? I don't know about everyone but well, I do feel like this sometimes and I definitely was feeling that at that very moment in time. I knew very well in mind that I should not go on like this but instead go back to my normal caring self but some how, I just couldn't. But I thank God that finally that spell was broken. =P

Anyway, this is the poem on how I felt during that time. =)

RAINBOW OF MY HEART

I was looking….
Searching for that rainbow
Looking in the sky…
For that rainbow
That once upon a time,
It Laced the garden of my little heart….

That precious rainbow;
That emits colorful rays,
Rays of hope for me and rays of light for those around me,
It brought little gestures of care,
Exuded warmth and love of a special kind,
A touch here and there,
Gentle words, angels’ whispers
That the rainbow shares….

I guess I will never find that rainbow
Seemingly it has diminished; or
Hardened itself against my little heart
I can’t feel its warmth,
Just plain coldness, brittle as crumbs
Left me wondering…
Rainbow of my heart…why did you leave me…?

I long for that rainbow once again
To come floating gently back
Tenderly embracing my little heart
Turned lonely, cold and hard
To once again feel the warmth
Pounding and pumping with love overflowing
To be me and me once moreRainbow of my heart,

I am eagerly yearning...

Phobia

Everyone has at least one phobia right? Well, some has ablutophobia(fear of washing or bathing), achuoplhobia(fear of darkness), aeroacrophobia(fear of open high places), agliophobia(fear of pain), altophobia(fear of heights), brontophobia(fear of thunder and lightning), cibophobia(fear of food) and also my fear version of going to Nasional Service(NS)....Natiphobia. How's this name? Anybody has a better version?

As I reflect on this fear of mine, it dawned upon me that it is unnecessary to fear things which are beyond my control. A good friend of mine thought so too. I've been looking to men and also all over the place for means and ways just to avoid going to NS though I'll only know if I'm going next year. On deeper thought, the reasons I have for not going are so lame. It could be my mindset and attitude too. I need to know assuringly that everything will turn out just fine.

Everyone keeps telling me that I should let God's will be done for my future as He knows best but the sound of it just makes your heart stop beating for a small fraction in time, doesn't it? Yea, trust the Lord...I know but being human, I tend to worry a little bit. Hehe...

But oh well, I try my best to surrender to God because He works for the good of those who love Him, right? And I do love Him. =)

Goodnight and God bless!

Breaking Free

Have you ever felt as if you're overflowing with love for something or someone but could not pin-point what it was? Well, as for me, there were many times when I just felt as if my heart was bursting with love. Bursting with love for someone....but who, i always thought to myself. I quickly went through a mental list of the people I know. However, none came to mind each time...so, I came to a conclusion that I'm bursting with love for a stranger, my future partner whom I have yet to know. But isn't it amazing that if you guard your heart which is full of feelings carefully, you can actually love hard and real when the time comes for you to fall head over heels in love with a special someone? That's exactly how I feel...I just hope and pray that my future mate, whoever it may be will know how to appreciate this priceless gift I have for him. =)