Phobia

Everyone has at least one phobia right? Well, some has ablutophobia(fear of washing or bathing), achuoplhobia(fear of darkness), aeroacrophobia(fear of open high places), agliophobia(fear of pain), altophobia(fear of heights), brontophobia(fear of thunder and lightning), cibophobia(fear of food) and also my fear version of going to Nasional Service(NS)....Natiphobia. How's this name? Anybody has a better version?

As I reflect on this fear of mine, it dawned upon me that it is unnecessary to fear things which are beyond my control. A good friend of mine thought so too. I've been looking to men and also all over the place for means and ways just to avoid going to NS though I'll only know if I'm going next year. On deeper thought, the reasons I have for not going are so lame. It could be my mindset and attitude too. I need to know assuringly that everything will turn out just fine.

Everyone keeps telling me that I should let God's will be done for my future as He knows best but the sound of it just makes your heart stop beating for a small fraction in time, doesn't it? Yea, trust the Lord...I know but being human, I tend to worry a little bit. Hehe...

But oh well, I try my best to surrender to God because He works for the good of those who love Him, right? And I do love Him. =)

Goodnight and God bless!