Rainbow Of My Heart

There was once a season when my heart became cold and uncaring. I just lost the enthusiasm to care and also to show love to those around me. Well, I guess everyone has at least once felt that they should do something but just can't bring themselves to do it, right? I don't know about everyone but well, I do feel like this sometimes and I definitely was feeling that at that very moment in time. I knew very well in mind that I should not go on like this but instead go back to my normal caring self but some how, I just couldn't. But I thank God that finally that spell was broken. =P

Anyway, this is the poem on how I felt during that time. =)

RAINBOW OF MY HEART

I was looking….
Searching for that rainbow
Looking in the sky…
For that rainbow
That once upon a time,
It Laced the garden of my little heart….

That precious rainbow;
That emits colorful rays,
Rays of hope for me and rays of light for those around me,
It brought little gestures of care,
Exuded warmth and love of a special kind,
A touch here and there,
Gentle words, angels’ whispers
That the rainbow shares….

I guess I will never find that rainbow
Seemingly it has diminished; or
Hardened itself against my little heart
I can’t feel its warmth,
Just plain coldness, brittle as crumbs
Left me wondering…
Rainbow of my heart…why did you leave me…?

I long for that rainbow once again
To come floating gently back
Tenderly embracing my little heart
Turned lonely, cold and hard
To once again feel the warmth
Pounding and pumping with love overflowing
To be me and me once moreRainbow of my heart,

I am eagerly yearning...

Breaking Free

Have you ever felt as if you're overflowing with love for something or someone but could not pin-point what it was? Well, as for me, there were many times when I just felt as if my heart was bursting with love. Bursting with love for someone....but who, i always thought to myself. I quickly went through a mental list of the people I know. However, none came to mind each time...so, I came to a conclusion that I'm bursting with love for a stranger, my future partner whom I have yet to know. But isn't it amazing that if you guard your heart which is full of feelings carefully, you can actually love hard and real when the time comes for you to fall head over heels in love with a special someone? That's exactly how I feel...I just hope and pray that my future mate, whoever it may be will know how to appreciate this priceless gift I have for him. =)